“That’s beside the point.”
The other guys laughed.
“So?” Mickey pressed lightly. “Did it make you feel good?”
“I, uh…” Katt cleared his throat. “I-I don’t really remember. It was a long time ago.”
“But you still think about it, right?” Mickey asked. “That’s what you told Gideon. You said you kind of liked it.”
Katthadn’tthought about it—until the brotherhood. He had, in fact, deliberately avoided thinking about it until now. What he’d said in the intro about just starting to think about it again and finally admitting he’dlikedit… that wasn’t true. But he couldn’t tell these guys the truth.
“Yeah, I… I guess so.” Katt swallowed. Things were about to get real, and he didn’t know if he could handlereal.
“How did it make you feel when you kissed him?” Marcus asked softly, seeming genuinely interested. “Did it feel different than kissing a girl?”
Katt fidgeted again. “I-I don’t know,” he mumbled. “I hadn’t kissed a girl yet.”
“But you kissed girls after that?”
“Yeah.” Katt laughed nervously. “Alotof girls.”
“And… fucked them?”
Swallowing hard, Katt nodded. “Yeah… that, too.”
Every eye in the room was on him now, heightening his anxiety.
“Does it feel good… fucking girls?”
Another nervous laugh. “Uh, yeah. It… It feels really good.”
Marcus snuggled closer, caressing his fingertips along Katt’s forearm. “But you still think about fuckingboyssometimes, too? Maybe wondering…” A single fingertip mapped the veins of his wrist. “… how goodthatmight feel?”
Katt had no conscious recollection of ever wondering how it would feel to fuck a guy. Mayberight afterthe fort incident.Maybe. But he didn’t remember much, if anything, of what he’d thought back then.
This “experience”, though, wasn’t about thetruth.
“I guess I did,” he said, his voice catching. “Now and then.”
Garrett joined the exchange. “When you think about it,” he asked quietly. “How does it make you feel?”
Katt frowned. “I’m not sure what you…”
“Does it make you feel embarrassed, or… ashamed? Like it’s taboo or forbidden?”
“I, um…” Katt released a shaky breath. “I don’t know. I never really analyzed it. The thought just comes and goes, I don’t try to… think about it too deeply.”
“You told Gideon you didn’t feel satisfied after you fucked girls,” Mickey said softly. “Didn’t that make you wonder if maybe you’d rather… fuck boys?”
“It feelsreallygood,” Marcus whispered in his ear, his breath puffing warmly against the shell. “Boys are… tighter. Boys know whatboyswant. We know how topleaseeach otherbetter.”
Gideon watched and listened as the scene in the rec room unfolded on the TV monitor. He’d learned early on that some of the best footage was captured in the rec room before the actual shoot, so he began recording it as well.
“Anything interesting yet?” Daniel stepped into the room and shut the door. “A little birdie told me you were shooting another Curious Boys segment today.”
Gideon smiled, always glad to see Daniel, the owner of The Lion’s Den strip club in the city—and Gideon’s new lover. They had been friends for years, but only recently took the next step into a sexual relationship. The “delay” was on Gideon, not Daniel.
“Possibly.” Gideon studied the monitor. “There’s something different about this one.”