Me: The dick broke the charts and now I’m sitting at the barbershop watching this man get a cut that’s making him even more fine than he already was while trying to decide if it’s fair for one man to be so damn…everything.
Me: And not only was the dick phenomenal but he bought me flowers for Valentine’s Day and I didn’t have to say shit. What am I supposed to do with that?
Marlee: Oh friend. You’re done for. There’s no hope of survival. I’m gonna miss you. Let me go ahead and set up my quarterly flights to Crescent Falls. I’m also going to pull up to your spot and burn all your Tigers gear ’cause yeah, you won’t need that anymore.
Me: Bitch don’t touch my shit. I’m never bailing on my Tigers.
Marlee:
Me: Don’t do that, I mean it.
Marlee: The dick has you delusional ’cause no man that has you wanting to risk it all is going to let you wear another man’s name on your body.
Me: You have a point. Tigers time of death, the minute Ryland Parks put his dick in me.
Marlee: I love you real bad.
Marlee: So what’s the deal though? You over the whole I’m never dating a hearing man?
Me: He’s very convincing, but I just feel like this is too easy.
I glanced at Ryland whose eyes were on me. As soon as he had my attention, his hands were moving.
“You good?”
“Yes.”
Marlee: When did easy become a bad thing?
Me: It’s not, but this easy feels too easy and that makes me anxious. He’s saying and doing all the right things. This feels good and that scares me.
Marlee: It’s okay to be scared as long as you’re moving forward. The only time being scared is a problem is when it holds you back. I’m going to say something you might not agree with, but as your friend, I have to perform my due diligence.
Me: Okay…
Marlee: Your mother is in your head.
Me: She’s not.
Marlee: You’re considering something serious with Ryland, right?
Me: Yes.
Marlee: If you had to tell your mother how you feel right now, would you?
No…
Me: She wouldn’t understand but it’s not about him being hearing. It’s more about me considering a new life separate from the one I worked so hard to build.
Marlee: You said he’s saying and doing all the right things, right?
Me: Yes.
Marlee: Okay bet, I know you, friend. What that means is he’s making room for you in his life and willing to support whatever makes you happy. That man is rich. If you want to teach, you can do that. If you want to stand on your head pissing in the wind, you can do that too. As for your mother having an issue with you leaving the life you built to start a new one that makes you happy, there’s no reason why she would be upset unless it’s about one thing…
Him being hearing.
Marlee: And if you’re saying you wouldn’t tell her it’s because she’s in your head. Part of you feels like she won’t approve of your life being completely upgraded or you falling for a man willing to go above and beyond to make you happy simply because of a past that has nothing to do with you. That’s her life. Don’t let it be yours, friend.